campfire smoke tonight. bleh. burns my eyes. i hung out at the church type gathering cuz i figured i had nothin else to do, which is quite true. i got my 'slow hands' ringtone sent to me free today ooooo love interpol. yay. ummm temp job starts thursday. with my free time, artistically i've started this thing i'm cleverly calling my remixes. pfft. basically, i'm just doing things to them in photoshop and hopefully improving things. so it's a good thing to kill some time. i saw shaun of the dead today and laughed pretty hard. i approve of zombie violence, bad language, and gore. that gets my seal of approval right there. ok yes, i think i'm done.

oh what have i done the past couple days? yes we did go to the corn maze, wandered around. simon's brother had me laughing all night. he walked into a piece of corn. yes, this is the same brother that also managed to somehow swallow a fly. so that was that night. yesterday simon dropped by and we then proceeded on our never ending search for something slightly entertaining or fun. we met up with pals, mostly aka cell phone popular girl. :p we threw the frisbee around for a while, lost the boomerang for good and then went back to my place to watch a freakin weird comedy that was most weird than funny. all of this while underneath mr. snuggly blanket. then we all parted ways and i fell asleep just before the stupid sun came up. how can i not sleep when i've been up the entire day? it boggles my already blurry mind. oh hey here's a picture.

today i got to do something new. after exhausting all my possibilities of having a productive day, i gave up in the afternoon. i went over to my friend's house, knocked on the door. he greeted me and had me follow him over to the wooden fence on the side of his house. he has the stupidest dog i think i've ever seen and it keeps breaking out of his yard, in any way possible. for some reason unknown, his parents won't get rid of the dog, even when everybody wants to get rid of it. anyway, our job was to fix a 6 foot section of the fence the dog had chewed through. today i got do build a fence, at least a part of it anyway. the funny thing is that i'm not mechanical at all, but all my measurements were precise and everything else went very well and according to plan. it was neither fun nor boring. the weather was a perfect 65, the sky to the south full of rain clouds. it was a good day. after that, we drove really far west to this rad park and took some cool pictures and i'll post new stuff in the coming days, lots to see. so, actually, if you wanna help me out you can vote for photos i submit to contests by going here http://www.photos-of-the-year.com/gallery/showgallery.php?stype=2&" title="http://www.photos-of-the-year.com/gallery/showgallery.php?stype=2&" target="_blank"http://www.photos-of-the-year...;si=fatalfame&cat=500 &sort=4&ppuser=25 77

these pictures demonstrate how nice and blue the sky was. don't you love that nature crap?

so today i did about half the things i planned to do. i was awaken a little earlier than i intended, so i got up and did what i needed to do. the bad part of the entire day is that i didn't take a single picture. the best and funniest part of the day is when we were driving the speed limit down the road. the guy behind had his pants on fire to get by us. so when the road opened up into 2 lanes, he got into the other and sped past us yelling something like "get it in gear!" but wait, it doesn't stop. his speeding past us put him 1 car length ahead of us in the lane next to us. we were stopped at a light and we could see him glaring at us in his side mirror SHAKING HIS HEAD IN DISAPPOINTMENT at our awesome "obeying the law" abilities. simon and i were laughing really hard and trying to decipher what he had said. i waived at him and simon gave a thumbs up, all the while the man was shaking his head in disappointment. he was totally bummed out that we were laughing at him, i wish i would have taken a picture. the only detail i can confirm is that he was driving a little PURPLE (it's the color of royalty!) truck.

on a more serious note, i'm inteding to find out what is causing my extreme apathy as of late. "i'm against picketing, i just don't know how to show it." that really doesn't have anything to do with it, i just think it's a funny line. i really needa get my wisdom teeth out soon, but that dentist office smell just makes me want to wait longer. i was thinking that if i ever put out a personal ad about myself it'd say something like "any girls interested in a guy who hates nature, punk music, cats, swimming, summer, and anything else most people really enjoy, drop me a line." honestly, am i the only person who hates all these things? i need to find some supporters. - you can be in my space.

no picture today. i quit my evil job today and they were really really really mad. but that's all i wanna say about that. they had everything coming to them and i'm glad i did it. however, quitting my stress inducing job didn't relieve any of the apathy i've been feeling as of late. i really just don't care about anything at all. i've always been one to think things through, but i've actually noticed myself getting completely lost in my own thoughts lately. like i'll completely tune out conversations around me just cuz i'm plotting my next move in my head. in all this inner debate, i decided that 'god rest ye merry gentlemen' is my favorite christmas song.

i use my time brilliantly huh? today with my few days of freedom, i'm going to do things i haven't been able to do lately. i'm going to take new pictures so i can enter them into contests. my blue vertigo building picture won honorable mention over at photo-of-the-year.com of course not honorable in the year category, but the month of august, i'm pleased with my humble success. my september submissions should beat the competition, the other photos against it are really not very good. so yes. i'll take photos, take simon to my job interview so he can get the job too and we can be reunited in the workplace. then we'll write a short script for an artistic film we have in the works. it will be the day of creativity, have you had one before?

i'm breaking a rule for this post. it's a poem, my favorite poem. by mr. jack white of the white stripes (one of my heroes.) it's just such a cool little paragraph, you wonder how somebody writes something like that. i'm also electing to post a new picture of me to justify my rule breaking. i set it up in this parking garage and had my mom snap it while she was in town visiting a few weeks ago. so enjoy.

"three molecules"

while walking around this tattered old house today
i came upon three molecules looking my way,
i stared at them for ages,
and checking all my gauges
i proceeded to examine them with instruments of great dexterity.
but as i was looking for answers,
through bacterias, amoeba's, and cancers
i came across something that simply couldn't be.
one molecule was red
one molecule was blue
but the third molecule my friend, was me.

jack white

III

i'm at a really weird age right now. almost 20. i can do anything with my life. but i have no idea what i wanna do. i can be a lawyer, an artist, a writer, stuck in a cozy office, scrapping it just to get by, an unemployed loser, studying in school the rest of my life, i could get married (umm i don't see this happening ever) i could die, i could live til i'm 105, i could travel the world, whatever i want. i don't know what. truthfully, if i had to pick an unrealistic one, i'd be the artist. just laying around creating things, not making any money. but getting to sleep as much as you want. the weird thing about sleep is that you don't wanna go to bed when it's 2am, but when you sleep you don't wanna wake up.

my life right now is kind of like this picture i took. it's the blurry road in front of my house. the road can take me one way or the other. it's underneath rainy clouds, it has a spotlight off in the distance. then there's me in the middle.

i like this picture posted today. i don't care what anybody says. as of tonight, i've very greatful to get a helping hand once in a while. now don't take this as a gratitude journal or something crappy. but i guess i haven't really said what i'm really really greatful for as of late. plus everybody says i'm angry and never positive. so it's good to show things that i love once in a while.

and of course there's the unconditonal greatfuls that don't need to be named (the 4 weiner dogs are in this category, except when i have to watch em.) what else am i greatful for? my car still starts up in the dreaded morning. somebody to walk on my back and pop it (usually simon) greatful to live where i do, i love my house. i love hanging out with people i don't normally hang out with and having a great time. i like my ring for some reason. i love childhood stories and insights my siblings recall. i love listening to music more than anything. i gotta just take a night, sit in my car and listen to interpol. i love elliott smith, jack white, blanche, damon albarn, bb+jf, mitch hedberg, and interpol. i love sleeping, i love taking pictures and being on the set of captain's movies. singing everything's in place to cheer up. heh. i like sitting around and watching a movie. i love golf. i love arrested development and scrubs. like playing my guitar whenever i have time and i can be loud. i like my wardrobe full of dark clothes and useless jackets i never wear. i like fritz, the cotton filled sausage mascot who's lost somewhere in my car. isn't this refreshing? now.. where did i put that picture. oh here it is.

lots of talk, rumors and intense speculation in reguards to the recent project i'm involved in. "the film." is an idea my good pal captain. http://libertyskids.tblog.com" title="http://libertyskids.tblog.com" target="_blank"http://libertyskids.tblog.com... (a member of the liberty's kids blog with me) came up with. a few months ago one of my fav bands, interpol was having this little film contest in promotion for their new album. captain came up with this idea about a guy riding an elevator with an intention to do harm to somebody but before he can, he's confronted by a mysterious muse type gorgeous girl and he has various artsy visions and ends up not causing harm to the one he intended. well, interpol screwed us over on the idea. however, we decided to go ahead and do it anyway cuz it was just too cool of a thing to pass up. so we find ourselves in the present day.

i've been chosen by the captain himself to be the elevator guy. i've never acted before, but there aren't any speaking parts. i guess i have that crazy look or something. technically, it shoots today. but i don't count days like that until i go to sleep and wake up, THEN it's the next day. so to me, it's tomorrow. and blah blah. we're all set. we have cameras, a muse, a suit, lights, the elevator and hopefully some kind of tasty snacks to go along with everything. i'll see about posting a clip or pictures of it on here in the near future. we can almost guarantee it's gonna be really cool. so stay tuned for that maybe. contest or not, we still rule.

cheers.

little update here. i was officially the ONLY person to be working on labor day. i did nothing, dreadfully fantastic with all the radio repeats. the big video shoots on thursday night i guess. i just have to track down a model for it. i'll explain it all later if it turns out. i just have no idea how i'm gonna pull it off. i'm no actor. i'm trying to get inspired for it. from now til then it's nothing but interpol... yeah i can do it. i'm excited and a little nervous for it.

tomorrow night is tv night. scrubs is on. tomorrow we write the shot list for the film. tomorrow i work again. tomorrow, tomorrow.

this might be the coolest picture i've taken yet.

so i woke up today and went over to my friend's house. we sat around for a while. sat around some more. read through the paper. i learned that my friend's brother was trying out for the SECRET SERVICE. this really caught my attention since you never really hear about anyone trying out for the secret service. so i asked my friend's little brother, age 15 what you had to do to get in. my friend cut in, "you gotta take a test." i asked his little brother "what kinda test do you take?" he replied "i dunno, one that rocks." isn't that a hilarious answer? hilarious and stupid at the same time. that's why i love my friend's little brother. he kills me.

during the middle of my visit we went to my sister's house to watch balloons and confetti fall from the ceiling, cuz we all think it's quite exciting. we discussed the many ways that nip tuck is super bad for any human being to endure. we then watched an episode of arrested development, the best show on tv and after that we left. not much happened after that. we watched lots of music videos and pondered how interpol is so incredibly artistic and cool. then i made my way home. that was my day. i don't get to do it often. oh and i have to mention that my friend and i LOVE LOVE LOVE blanche. www.blanchemusic.com it's super fun to sing along to every song. you have no idea. hehe.